12-2-9: holidays and prudence

Chapman GrubbDecember 02, 2019

Prudence is the idea of balancing both short term and long term goals within work so you can come out and play. The reading I pursued regarded the normal point of view. I.e. work now so you can indulge later. As useful and true as this sentiment is - I find myself frustratingly on the opposite side of the spectrum. 

I feel like I limit my indulgence to an extreme measure. Balance has never been a strength of mine. I have always been passionate to the point of obsession. While in many cases, this is an asset. It is hard being a workaholic around the holidays.

This stems from my internal conflict between work and fun. I love everything about running/owning the rerouted co-op. I love all of my family and friends. I enjoy hard work (to the detriment of fun). I enjoy kicking it with my family and friends. 

Maintaining separation between the two is a constant challenge. I find work bleeding into social interactions and visa versa. I am forced to assume that this is a good problem to have. Obsessed with work - yet, desperate to be a social butterfly. It makes for internal conflict - and physical exhaustion. 

The key is not allowing either of my desires to override or imbalance the other. Schedule, schedule, schedule. Once, a boss told me I had to schedule a time to relax. I thought it was a joke. Clearly, I did not love the work. When you never clock out - when is the fun supposed to come?

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